Monday, 7 May 2012

Psalm 112: Sermon


Before we read the passage there are just two things I’d like for you to note about this Psalm. The first is purely for interest sake – it is known as an acrostic poem… this means that if we were to read it in Hebrew each new line begins with a consecutive letter in the alphabet, for example in English it would start with A, like Alleluia, Blessed is the man who fears the Lord, Children he has will fill the earth. The thought behind why psalms were written like this was to make memorising it easier!

The second note is about the Psalm just before our one - Psalm 111. That Psalm and this one are linked, partners in a sense. They’re a little like the sun and the moon. Psalm 111 talks of God’s glory and Psalm 112 man’s blessedness in reflecting God’s glory. With those two things in our minds, let’s go to our passage for today: Psalm 112:1-9

“Praise the Lord
Blessed is the man who fears the Lord, who finds great delight in his commands.
His children will be mighty in the land; the generation of the upright will be blessed.
Wealth and riches are in his house, and his righteousness endures forever.
Even in darkness light dawns for the upright, for the gracious and compassionate and righteous man.
Good, will come to him who is generous and lends freely, who conducts his affairs with justice.
Surely he will never be shaken; a righteous man will be remembered forever.
He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord
His heart is secure, he will have no fear; in the end he will look in triumph on his foes.
He has scattered abroad his gifts to the poor, his righteousness endures forever; his horn will be lifted high in honour.”

This is a beautiful Psalm brimming with promise and goodness. With a simple reading of the text, one might claim that this is the very heart of the prosperity gospel – follow God, stay in his path and you will be blessed, and not just you but your children and your family and you can expect a life full of wealth and riches. 
Perhaps.

Another way of reading the text could provide quite a different image of what it means to be blessed and what riches and wealth mean. The psalmist offers a connection between riches and wealth with that of someone who is righteous, gracious, compassionate, generous, just, and who trusts in God. Perhaps the wealth and riches are not to be understood as simply financial, but as stepping stones to attain a well lived life– Stepping stones of grace, compassion, generosity, justice, and faithfulness. These are the treasures after which one might strive.


In personal worlds touched by violence, relational and economic hardship, greed and unfulfilled desires, this psalm offers people an alternative. It is as if the psalmist is offering something to which a person might cling as a life jacket of hope. I’m praying that in this study, we might find that hope.

The first verse in the psalm is what I have labelled: The heart of the righteous. This is the person to whom the rest of the psalm applies.
“Blessed is the person who fears the Lord, who finds great delight in his commands.”

This concept of “fearing” the Lord is to some extent lost in our modern society. Fear is known almost exclusively as a negative thing and is linked to images of abused power and cowering and distrust. However in the translation from the Hebrew that is not what it means at all, many more modern translations use the word ‘reverence’, ‘in awe of’ or ‘respect’… We find this word translated as love in Dueteronomy 10 verse 12:

“And now, O Israel, what does the Lord your God ask of you but to fear the Lord your God, to walk in all his ways, to love him, to serve the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your Soul.”

And later in verse 20 it is translated:
Hold Fast to the Lord”, or in another translation: “Cling to the Lord.”

This is hardly the kind of fear that has one cowering or running. Rather it is a deep knowledge of the magnificence and greatness and supremacy of God, and responding to that with the correct reverence, awe and love.

And delighting in his commands stem from this heart attitude of awe and love; we have good friends, Chris and Hayley who on Wednesday became parents to their baby boy Caleb. And as those parents among us know – Caleb commands a lot… feeding, changing, dressing, comforting, teaching, but do you think it’s done out of duty?  Of course not! While the 3am feeds are something of a trial, it is all done out of love for a child that only a parent can know. In the same way we do not obey out of duty, or because we are told to – rather because we Love God, these commands become as natural as breathing. Of course I’ll take care of my baby. Of course I’ll obey God.
The heart of the righteous is one which holds love and obedience together in reverence for our God who loved us first.

Reading on from there the psalmist writes:
“His children will be mighty in the land; the generation of the upright will be blessed.
Wealth and riches are in his house, and his righteousness endures forever.
Even in darkness light dawns for the upright, for the gracious and compassionate and righteous man.”

I have called this section the “Hope of the righteous”…
Blessed and mighty children, wealth and riches, light in darkness.

One of the ancient commentators said of verse 2, (and I’m paraphrasing from the Shakespearean English) If anyone wishes to leave behind him flourishing prosperity, let them not think along the lines of storing up hoards of gold and silver. Rather let him rightly recognise and serve God and entrust his children to Christ’s guardianship and protection.
Another quote readsTo be honest, the real reason it's so hard to bring up children right is that they insist on imitating their parents.”

Funny, but in truth the power of influence one has one the younger generation is both encouraging and terrifying. It is also interesting to note what happens down family lines. Research by a Richard Dugdale was done of two men, living in the 1700s to see what had happened to their descendants…
Firstly Max Juke: Born 1700. He lived as a backwoodsmen. He is described as 'a hunter and fisher, a hard drinker, jolly and companionable, averse to steady toil,' working hard by spurts and idling by turns, becoming blind in his old age. He had a numerous children, some of them almost certainly illegitimate." There was a huge amount of intermarrying and incest which happened within his family.
Of his estimated 1200  descendants:
280 died as paupers
140 were known criminals
130 went to jail – 7 for murder
More than 128 became prostitutes
142 lived off state aid
60 became thieves
20 became tradesmen, 10 of whom learned their trade in prison.
300 died very young.

Secondly we have Jonathon Edwards: Born 1703
A man of God and married a woman of like character. He was 17 and she was 13 (this was the 17 hundreds after all!) On their wedding night they committed their marriage to the Lord. Their descendants included:
  • "practically no lawbreakers"
  • more than 100 lawyers, 30 judges
  • 13 college presidents, and hundred and more professors
  • sixty physicians
  • 100 clergymen, missionaries, and theological professors
  • 80 elected to public office, including 3 mayors, 3 governors, several members of congress, 3 senators, and 1 vice president (Aaron Burr)
  • 60 have attained prominence in authorship or editorial life, with 135 books of merit
  • 75 army or navy officers
How to explain this? Yes, Jonathan Edwards was very godly. But he was also uncommonly hard-working, intelligent, and moral. And the research says about his wife, "Much of the capacity and talent, intensity and character of the more than 1,400 of the Edwards family are due to Mrs. Edwards." From his description of her, I suspect this is true.

Returning to our verse there are two things to note, firstly this is not an individual, but a general promise- those who fear God and lead holy lives, as a rule are doing the best they can for the future of their family. No inheritance is equal to that of an unblemished name and, the children of righteous parents commence life with greater advantages than others, and are more likely to succeed in it, in the best and highest sense.

Secondly, this isn’t only speaking of physical children, but of all those following you and your example. Just as we sing the song Father Abraham had many sons, I am one of them and so are you… etc. etc. – so too if you were to look around and see how many spiritual children you have, you might be surprised and hopefully overjoyed by their blessedness.

The second hope is what is spoken of in terms of wealth and riches…
“Wealth and riches are in his house, and his righteousness endures forever.”

In the physical sense, we may read these words literally of abundant wealth given to the righteous by God, and used, not for pride and luxury, but for on-going acts of generosity, so that it is said of the person so enriched, that his righteousness endures for ever. But the higher meaning here calls us to see those true spiritual riches which are stored up for the poor in spirit, often the most needy in the world. The Apostle Paul says it beautifully in his letter to the Corinthians where he writes of himself and his follow workers, "We are poor, yet make many rich; we have nothing, and yet possess all things." 2 Corinthians 6:10 . For who can be richer than he who is heir of God and joint heir with Jesus Christ?
A Baptist minister: F.E. Marsh has listed some of God's blessings:
An acceptance that can never be questioned. (Ephesians 1:6).
An inheritance that can never be lost (I Peter 1:3-5).
A deliverance that can never be excelled (2 Corinthians l:10).
A grace that can never be limited (2 Corinthians 12:9).
A hope that can never be disappointed. (Hebrews 6:18, 19).
A bounty that can never be withdrawn. (I Colossians 3:21-23).
A joy that need never be diminished (John 15:11).
A nearness to God that can never be reversed (Ephesians 2:13).
A peace that can never be disturbed (John 14:27).
A righteousness that can never be tarnished (2 Corinthians 5:21).
A salvation that can never be cancelled (Hebrews 5:9).


The third Hope is that of Light… light in the midst of darkness. The psalmist in no way removes trouble from the righteous person’s life – rather in the darkness, The Lord himself will be their light. Light is synonymous with His presence. And although we are never promised that life will be easy, the hope that we cling to is that it is never done alone… I will be with you always… promises Jesus. Just as we was in the fire with 3 men in Babylon, in the Lion’s Den with Daniel and in the stormy sea with his disciples – so too he can be our light and our hope in times of doubt, loss, confusion, rejection, and despair.
The other hope of light is at the end of all things – we as believers have this incredible, unkill-able hope that this isn’t all there is – that the most beautiful things of this earth are merely the sketching’s of something much greater and magnificent in the world to come. That the trials and troubles and tears of this world will be wiped out and wiped away – that there is a glorious future for all who love the Lord.

Lastly, the psalmist speaks of the Honour of the righteous.
“Good, will come to him who is generous and lends freely, who conducts his affairs with justice.
Surely he will never be shaken; a righteous man will be remembered forever.
He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord
His heart is secure, he will have no fear; in the end he will look in triumph on his foes.
He has scattered abroad his gifts to the poor, his righteousness endures forever; his horn will be lifted high in honour.”

The Message Bible ends it this way:
An honoured life! A beautiful life!”

These are the deeds that lead to honour, and to a life bursting with meaning and significance. Is not this what we desire? An honoured life? A beautiful life? A righteous person who will be remembered forever?

There is a form of ancient spirituality which is still practiced in some churches, primarily the Anglican Church – called Ignation Spirituality. It comprises a series of spiritual exercises where one meditates on the meaning of the Cross and Christ’s death for us. It allows one to draw near to God in a very deep way. One of these exercises is to design your own funeral in detail. Who would be there? What would they say? How would you be remembered? It seems awfully morbid but provides one with a perspective on life that is often missed.

We often lament the lack of “good” people in society today. Yet fail to look at ourselves. The world is desperate for morality in the work place, honesty on tax-returns and purity in relationships. It is crying out for encouragement in place of gossip, for generosity rather than greed, humility rather than self-advancement and compassion rather than indifference. And we’re so quick to go “well why aren’t people changing the world”, when the real question is God, how should I be changing the world. Nicky Gumbel talks about being too young to make a difference, and then all of a sudden he feels he is too old. Sometimes the “too” is replaced with too busy, too stressed, too stretched financially… and we go through our whole lives becoming flavourless salt and lights under baskets. The righteous man will be remembered forever… writes the psalmist… and it is for good reason he is remembered… at your funeral – what will you be remembered for?


Fred Craddock, in an address to ministers, caught the practical implications of this. "To give my life for Christ appears glorious," he said. "To pour myself out for others. . . to pay the ultimate price of martyrdom -- I'll do it. I'm ready, Lord, to go out in a blaze of glory. "We think giving our all to the Lord is like taking Rl,000 bill and laying it on the table-- 'Here's my life, Lord. I'm giving it all.' But the reality for most of us is that he sends us to the bank and has us cash in the Rl,000 for 5 cent coins. We go through life putting out 25 cents here and 50 cents there. Listening to the neighbor kid's troubles instead of saying, 'Get lost.' Going to a committee meeting. Not losing our temper over little things. Praying for our country’s leaders. Sponsoring a needy child. Knitting a jersey. Usually giving our life to Christ isn't glorious. It's done in all those little acts of love, 25 cents at a time. It would be easy to go out in a flash of glory; it's harder to live the Christian life little by little over the long haul."
Mother Teresa once said, “I am not called to be successful, I am called to be faithful."
In Conclusion then, I do not think the psalmist is trying to say that only people who are perfect in their devotion to the commands of God or that exhibit a life completely in line with the will of God will receive these blessings. This would exclude each and every one of us. Instead, it seems he is talking of a heart attitude of the righteous which leads one to love God and obey his commands. It is a heart attitude that cannot come from ourselves – but through the Holy Spirit’s work within us.

A transaction takes place when we say, Lord Jesus, work inside us – grow this heart to love you, to obey you. The Hope and the Honour which follow a heart that is seeking after God ultimately grow us until we want nothing of this world, and everything of him.


Prayer:
Radiant God, you are the vibrant Light that leads us to life in all its fullness; you are the Light that takes the harsh sting out of fear and uncertainty; and you are the Light that helps us in our choices, our options and priorities in life and living.
We praise you our God for your gracious goodness.

God our Leader, you are the Guide that shows us the path of justice and mercy; you are the Guide that takes us by the hand to lead us into the direction of trust and confidence in your unfailing goodness; and you are the Guide that teaches us about living with our brothers and sisters in peace and contentment, and not being anxious by the need for ’things’.
We praise you our God for your gracious wisdom.

Unsparing God, you are the Generous Giver that gives us many blessings and mercies; who shows love for your children, however deserving or otherwise they are of such love; you are the Generous Giver that enriches our life with the blessings of love given and received; of forgiveness offered, received and shared; and the Generous Giver of courage and endurance, to enable us to live faithfully each day, following your commands.
We praise you our God for your gracious bounty.

Compassionate God, forgive us for turning a blind eye and a deaf ear to your teachings, through our self-centredness, are unable to see your generosity as a gift; and we seek to exploit your goodness to our own advantage.
We praise you our God for your gracious forgiveness. Amen.


Happy are those who fear the LORD,
 who greatly delight in God’s commandments.
The generation of the upright will be blessed;
they rise in the darkness as a light for the upright.
It is well with those who deal generously,
who conduct their affairs with justice.
They will never be moved;
they will be remembered forever.
And the blessing of God,
Father, Son and Holy Spirit,
be with you,
now and forever.
Amen

Monday, 30 April 2012

John 21:15-25: Coming, Confiding & Continuing


“When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon son of John, do you truly love me more than these?”
“Yes, Lord,” he said , “you know that I love you.”
Jesus said, “Feed my lambs.”
Again Jesus said, “Simon son of John, do you truly love me?”
He answered, “Yes, Lord, you know that I love you.”
Jesus said, “Take care of my sheep.”
The third time he said to him, “Simon son of John, do you love me?”
Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, “Do you love me?” He said “Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you.”
Jesus said, “Feed my sheep. I tell you the truth, when you were younger you dressed yourself and went where you wanted; but when you are old you will stretch out your hands, and someone else will dress you and lead you where you do not want to go.”
Jesus said this to indicate the kind of death by which Peter would glorify God. Then he said to him, “Follow me!”
Peter turned and saw that the disciple whom Jesus loved was following them. (This was the one who had leaned back against Jesus at the supper and had said, “Lord, who is going to betray you?”)
When Peter saw him, he asked, “Lord, What about him?”
Jesus answered, “If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you? You must follow me.” John 21:15-24

As many of you know, Peter was one of Jesus most devoted disciples. In many ways he was seen as the leader, and Jesus had even changed his name from Simon to Peter, meaning the Rock. And yet Peter had many faults. He talked big and yet couldn’t always follow through – most recently and most painfully, hours after claiming that even though everyone else might fall away he would stand strong. He would even die for Jesus – he stands terrified before servants and slave girls swearing that he did not even know Jesus. Can you imagine the shame, the humiliation? Jesus then rises from the tomb, and while Peter rejoices in the return of his friend and teacher, he also wonders – have I gone too far this time? Will it ever go back to what it was between us? Will Jesus ever trust me again? How could I have done it? I wish I could go back…

But in spite of these fears Peter does three things right. And this is what we will be looking at. In my research there is so so much richness in this passage – hundreds of different sermons could be written and each time we read it something else could speak to us. I encourage you to do some research and a Bible study into what happens here as in the time we have, we will only begin to scrape the surface, not mine its depths.

We can read slightly before our passage that when Jesus walked along the shore, Peter dives in the water to meet with him. In verse 7 we read

“Then the disciple whom Jesus loved said to Peter, “It is the Lord!” As soon as Simon Peter heard him say, “It is the Lord,” he wrapped his outer garment around him, and jumped into the water.”

The first thing Peter does is that he runs to (or in this instance swims to) Jesus. I know when I’ve offended someone my instinct is to avoid them. The shame and embarrassment makes me want to hide rather than to seek them out, and yet here Peter cannot even wait for the boat to arrive at the shore. Ever impulsive Peter goes straight to his master.

“Come to me” Jesus says
 “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened”
“Let the little children come to me” Luke 18:16
“…Come to me to have life” John 5:40
“He who comes to me will never go hungry…” John 6:35
“If anyone is thirsty let him come to me and drink” John 7:37
 “…Whoever comes to me I will never drive away” John 6:37

I don’t know where you are or what it is that keeps you from going to Jesus. Perhaps you feel you have stumbled too far off the path, perhaps you feel it’s been too long, maybe its shame or fear or anger. Maybe its sheer laziness or apathy – it might even be a blindness we have to the slippery path we have begun to walk and so feel no need to go to Jesus – it’s just a little thing we rationalise…

One of the keenest lessons I ever learnt from Jess, Kingsley wife came a few years back at St Mungo’s on a Sunday morning. I was making my way through the tea area on my way to Teen Church when a dear congregation member came and criticised me for something I felt she had no right or knowledge on to truly criticise! And so feeling quite hurt I left her and went downstairs to a close friend of mine, and moaned to her about how very unfair this comment had been.
Jess over-hearing our conversation came and said, “Jackie – run to Jesus. Take this hurt, this feeling and run straight to him – you cannot let any seed of bitterness or resentment grow up!” And so we did, right then and there in the pre-primary classroom.

Is there something you need to run to Jesus about?

 The second thing that Peter did right was he was honest with Jesus.

Seated there beside the fire, Jesus turns to Peter and says Simon, son of John – do you truly love me more than these?

Our Lord searched the heart of Peter with three questions, which brought up to Peter's mind the roots of his failure, rather than the overt act of denial. The heart of the matter was that Peter, if you love me, you will obey my commands, you will acknowledge me. So the real question is Peter – do you love me?

In C. S. Lewis’ The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe, the White Witch needed to know only one thing about Edmund to get him to betray his siblings. By asking a few simple questions, the witch learned that Edmund’s weakness was his love for a candy called Turkish Delight. The piece she gave to Edmund was more delicious than anything he had ever tasted. Soon Edmund could think only about “trying to shovel down as much Turkish Delight as he could, and the more he ate the more he wanted.”

Each of us has a vulnerability like Edmund’s. It may be something addictive like drugs or alcohol, or it may be something seemingly harmless and perhaps even good like food, friendship, or work.

After His resurrection, Jesus asked Peter this personal and probing question: “Do you love Me more than these?” Many have speculated as to what Jesus meant by the word “these,” but it’s probably better that we don’t know. It allows each of us to personalize the question and ask ourselves, “What do I love more than Jesus?”

And when we hear Him asking "Do you love Me?" how do you answer? 'Jesus, I admire You. Jesus, I think you are fascinating. Jesus, I have a great respect for You'? Or can you say with Peter, 'Lord, you know what is in my heart, You know that I love You'?

One of the fascinating gems I found in studying this passage was that there are two different Greek words here used for our word “know”
The first three times Peter says, “Lord you know…” he is using the word ‘oida’ which means know intellectually, in your mind, but the last time he says Lord you know “oida” all things, you know “ginosko” that I love you. This second Greek word means to know experientially or personally. To know because you have been there and witnessed and are familiar with it…

I can quite comfortably say that I know Nelson Mandela. I mean you all know Mr Mandela right? We’ve heard him speak, we know where he lived and lives. We know quotes of his and how he struggled for democracy. Some of us may have visited his prison cell on Robben Island, or his old house in Soweto and some of us may even be able to say we have had the honour of shaking his hand. This is Oida knowledge…
But then I can say that I know my husband Tim. This is a very different kind of knowledge. I know Tim because I live with him, I wake up beside him every morning, I know his dreams, his worries and what he is passionate about. I know why he enjoys running the sound at the church and what to cook for him on his birthday. I also know that he loves me. This is ginosko knowledge… I am familiar with Tim, I experience living with him every day.

And this is what Peter is saying – Lord you know all things you have experienced and are familiar with how I love you. Can you say this to Jesus? Do you know Jesus in this way? Do you love Jesus in this way?

The reason I say that Peter was honest in these questions was because of how he responded. Again we miss so much without the Greek translation… as many of you know there are different kinds of love in the Greek language and the two that are mentioned here are Agape which is a pure, self-less God-like love. And Phileo, a deep love between friends or companions. Keeping that in mind, the conversation between Jesus and Peter actually goes as follows, “Peter do you love me with a God-like love?” “You know that I care for you” “Peter do you love me with a God-like love?” “You know that I care for you” “Peter do you care for me?”
“Yes Lord, you know that I care you.” The change in Peters tone is astounding. From being the boastful, sure-of-himself leader… Peter has changed to, Lord I dare not claim anything that I cannot be sure of – I cannot claim to agape you, you know my heart, you know how I love you. It reminds me of a father who takes his demon possessed son to Jesus to be healed, and when Jesus asks him if he has faith, the father cries in desperation, “Lord I believe, help my unbelief”

Jesus in his compassion in the last question sinks to Peter’s level and asks if he cares for him…  The Lord asks for our honesty and our love. Peter gave both.

“The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart oh God, you will not despise.” Psalm 51:170

Lastly, Peter accepted his forgiveness and continued to follow Jesus. So many of us when we have broken our word, when we have hurt others, when we have let God down, let ourselves down – exclude ourselves from his calling.

Many say that the reason that Jesus asked the question 3 times was because Peter had denied him 3 times. This is a likely possibility, but there is another way of looking at it. The three questions might relate to the three denials… thus the undoing of them. Or they might refer to the making of a contract. At this time in history a threefold of questions and answers was done to enact a contract. Peter was being re-commissioned.

In Matthew 4 we read, “And walking by the Sea of Galilee, He saw two brothers, Simon who was called Peter, and Andrew his brother, casting a net into the sea; for they were fishermen. And He said to them, "Follow Me, and I will make you fishers of men. And they immediately left the nets, and followed Him.
Imagine Peter's thoughts - This same seaside is where Jesus called Peter to follow Him. And he had left all to follow Him. And then he had declared his "unshakeable" loyalty. But now he’s failed and denied Him three times. And now he was back where he had began the journey with Jesus. Was this the end of the journey? Could Jesus ever use a failure like Peter? If we have followed Jesus for more than a few years, these are questions we've all probably mulled over in our mind at one time or another, which is why this personal, poignant interaction between Jesus and Peter is so powerful and so pertinent to our lives -- because we have all failed our Lord in one way or another and our failure has left us downcast and grieved in spirit. Is this the end of the journey for us? Can Jesus ever use failures like us?
Peter had returned to fishing. When Jesus walked along the shore this time, Peter was back in the boat. Yet at the sight of Jesus, Peter swam back into his arms, was humble and honest with him, and in doing so reaccepted his calling, his commission from God.
Feed my lambs, Tend my sheep, feed my sheep.

We might feel like we’re useless, that we’re failures. But Jesus is able and willing to take broken hearts and restore them to his service. To the service of loving and caring and tending to his family.

Jesus then finishes the conversation with the same command that he had given Peter so long ago… Follow me.

At times our path is rough and steep,
Our way is hard to see;
We ask God, "Why is life unfair?"
He answers, "Follow Me."

The question I want to ask you – have you had a fireside conversation with Jesus? Have you gone to him with all that it is in your heart, and heard what he has to say to you? Will you be courageous like Peter and run to him, will you be honest like Peter and tell him that you want to love him, that you want to truly know him? Will you be faithful like Peter and hear the call to follow, to live to glorify him, to tend his sheep…

Jesus is saying, Come to me, Confide in me, Continue with me…

May I encourage you to have a time of prayer now, where you can truly meet with Jesus. Where you can sit with him and have that conversation.


Lord Jesus, we welcome you here. Meet with us as we run to you this morning…

Lord you know all things.  You know about our immaturity.  Lord you know about our past experiences.  Lord you know we struggle with authority; Lord you know that sometimes we are confused about our own feelings.  You know we lack direction.  Lord you know we don’t even know what to ask.  Lord you know we are lonely.  Lord you know the world seems confusing to us.  Lord you know we are living with bitterness or un-forgiveness and Lord you know about our personal struggle with besetting sin.
Your word tells us that “while we were still sinners, Christ died for us” and how very grateful we are Lord.

You also promise Lord that if we confess our sins you are faithful and just to forgive us, and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” This morning accept us once again back into your service… as the old hymn says

Son of the living God! Oh, call us
Once and again to follow Thee;
And give us strength, whate’er befall us,
Thy true disciples still to be.
—Martin

Friday, 9 March 2012

Depression...

I think I might have hit this stage of grief. Its been almost five months since King has gone, three months since Mark- and suddenly I've found that something inside me has died. Some spark, some life force - and I feel hollow.

Perhaps hollow is the wrong word, empty of meaning is probably more accurate because I am full of tears, its as if the dam wall that was holding back an ocean has burst and my eyes leak it out almost continually. Even when there's not actual water on my face it pours on the inside.

The irony is that amidst this space of pain and emptyness, I'm trying to write an essay on hope. Yes. Hope. A concept I believe in but feel little of at the moment. My brain is choosing to believe, choosing to pray, choosing to trust that God knows what he's doing - while my soul simply throbs in agony.

My hope at the moment? It will get better. There will be a time when I do not soak my pillow in tears. There will be a time when I can think of them without pain. I believe there is a light at the end of this tunnel. It's just pretty dark for the moment.

Anyone got a spare candle? Mine ran out.

Tuesday, 6 March 2012

Consider the Soldiers...


Our reading this morning, starts at the cross. Jesus has been tried, condemned, whipped, and crucified… Pilate as you know did not agree with the conviction and had washed his hands of the matter, handing Jesus over to the Soldiers and the crowd. And so we read in John 19: 19-24

 19 Pilate had a notice prepared and fastened to the cross. It read: JESUS OF NAZARETH, THE KING OF THE JEWS. 20 Many of the Jews read this sign, for the place where Jesus was crucified was near the city, and the sign was written in Aramaic, Latin and Greek. 21 The chief priests of the Jews protested to Pilate, “Do not write ‘The King of the Jews,’ but that this man claimed to be king of the Jews.”
 22 Pilate answered, “What I have written, I have written.”
 23 When the soldiers crucified Jesus, they took his clothes, dividing them into four shares, one for each of them, with the undergarment remaining. This garment was seamless, woven in one piece from top to bottom.
 24 “Let’s not tear it,” they said to one another. “Let’s decide by lot who will get it.”
   This happened that the scripture might be fulfilled which said,
   “They divided my garments among them
   and cast lots for my clothing.”[
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   So this is what the soldiers did. 


 My favourite Easter song starts with the haunting question of “Were you there when they crucified my Lord?” Peter Marshal wrote a sermon using those words as his title…

“Only as the nails were driven in did the shouting stop. There was a hush. Most of them were stunned … horrified … Even the hardest of them was silenced, and the thud of the hammer was faintly re-echoed from the city walls.
Mary the mother of Jesus, stopped her ears and closed her eyes. She could not bear the thud of the hammer. Simon of Cyrene from time to time wiped away his tears with the back of his hand… carrying a cross for the condemned changes a man. Peter stood on the fringe of the crowd blinded by hot tears that filled his eyes, while his very heart broke.
They hurled his own words back at Him, but they were barbs, dipped in venom and shot from snarling lips, like poisoned arrows.
“He saved others, But he can’t save himself. Yes he healed the cripples, yes, he gave sight to the blind. He made withered arms whole again. He even brought back the dead, but he cannot save himself.
Perform a miracle now miracle man! Come down from the cross and we’ll believe you. Aha, you would build the temple in three days… you who have nails in your hands, you have wood – go on and rebuild your temple.
If you are the Christ, come on down from the cross”
They shouted until they were hoarse.
The noise was so great that only a few of them standing near the Cross heard what He said when his lips moved in prayer: “Father, forgive them, for they don’t know what they do.”

Past his feet, through the blood and sweat that filled his eyes, he would have been able to catch a glimpse of a huddle of soldiers, and a flash of dice. The garment they played for would have been recognisable. His mother most likely would have made it for him as he left home, a seamless robe, worth gambling for.
The soldiers do not look up. They stop their ears to the shouts of the crowd, to the moans of the dying, to the cries of the family. This is just another day at the office.

Have you ever wondered how they could be playing in the sand while people die? Have you ever wondered how the soldiers could not have known what was happening? Have you considered the callousness that must have engulfed their hearts?
In looking at their reasons though, I found myself shocked that we sitting here this morning are perhaps not that different from those men.

 One of the soldiers, a tanned and well decorated man in his 40’s is bored. He looks at his friends around him and yawns. He was part of the contingent that arrested this man last night so didn’t get much sleep. The sun is baking down, and in their armour the sweat pools and glistens on their faces. “I hope they go quickly” he thinks, not from any sense of compassion mind you. An early day would be great; he barely saw his wife and children this morning and would love to get home to them. The others were squabbling over some of the condemned men’s clothes – and it looked as though they might even tear the one garment. “Wait” he says, “Lets Gamble for it” as he reaches into his pocket for dice, Gambling would at least kill some of the time. Crucifixions were common place. In fact when Jesus was a teenager, there was a rebellion in Jerusalem and the Romans in response crucified 15 hundred of the insurrectionist along the 15 kilometre stretch leading to Jerusalem, one crucified man per every 10 meters. The stench would have filled Jerusalem for days.
Boredom is what caused some of the men to not even notice the man on the cross, when I said it was another day at the office it truly was just that. Another day; another crucifixion.
I was privileged enough to go on a Mission trip from this church to Mozambique about 8 years ago. We travelled through remote areas of the country with a generator, a projector and screen, and then in open fields near villages we would set up the Jesus Film where hundreds would gather at night to watch it. These were people in extreme poverty that had never heard the story of Jesus let alone seen a film.
What was incredible to see though was their reaction to the scourging and crucifixion. Many of them would weep openly and some would get so angry that they would stand and shout at the screen. In seeing that I realised that I had even become blasé about it all. Yes Jesus got crucified, but after seeing it Easter after Easter, it does get a little done you know? Perhaps we miss the message and the wonder of the cross simply because we have seen it one too many times. Familiarity causes many to miss the wonder of Easter.

 A younger soldier spat to the ground in contempt. If he wins this garment he’ll burn it. The Jewish people disgusted him. His bitterness had grown up deep in his soul when his own brother, also a soldier was killed by one of these renegades when they knifed him in the street while he was on patrol. The instigators would often carry knives under their cloaks and cut soldiers as they brushed passed them in busy streets. He didn’t know what this Jesus character was all about – but hey, the more Jews they kill, the fewer that are left to despise.
Bitterness is a dangerous emotion. Scientists have proved that the emotion can actually produce a toxin in people bodies that make them sick. It often results in prejudice, resentment, racism, broken relationships, and ultimately anger at God.
In this soldier’s case, all Jews were evil because of what happened to his brother. And he was not alone as many of the Romans hated the Jews with a passion. Being posted to Palestine was seen as punishment… and many times it actually was. His hatred and prejudice led him to miss Christ, miss the wonder of what was happening in front of him. The most significant event in history was unfolding and he sat there seething.
Many of us too are holding onto some bitterness. Perhaps its anger at Christians because they have proven time and time again to be hypocritical and false. Perhaps its frustration with the Church for not doing things “right”, for not caring at a time when care was most needed. Perhaps it’s even anger at God for unanswered prayer, for pain, for loss. Bitterness clouds our view and can make us miss the wonders of Easter.

A third soldier’s eyes sparkled at the idea of gambling. He’d been eyeing the robe ever since they stripped it off the carpenter but knew that due to his rank he would never have gotten it. But now he was in with a chance! He crouched down with the others eyes fixed on the dice… it was his lucky day for sure.
Busyness is a major distraction from the cross. Our lives that are lived in pursuit of getting on top of things, getting ahead or even just getting by can make us miss the message of the cross. Can you imagine God, seeing grown men play in the sand while his son died for them? Can you imagine Jesus watching this charade through the blood in his eyes? When he prays for their forgiveness it’s not just for those he were hurling abuse at him. It was for those too busy to notice, those playing games and missing the immensity if the moment. It was for us as we get tied up in holiday plans, and work stress and dinner arrangements and let this season pass by without letting it change us.
There is a story of a Missionary to China, who was placed in prison for a number of years. Once released he and his wife and two kids were placed under house arrest for many months while people from his home country lobbied for his family’s release back to the UK. Finally one day a soldier arrived at their door and told them they would be flown out the next day, and could take 100kgs with them. Now realise that this family had lived there for over a decade and so much debate ensued about what to take. The Missionary desperately wanted his computer and his records, while his wife was trying to figure out which clothes they would most need. The children had their favourite toys and games, and so much debating and sadly at times quarrelling ensued for the next 24 hours until finally, they had exactly 100kg of luggage boxed and waiting.
The soldier returned the next morning to collect them and ask “Have you weighed out your 100kgs?” “Yes” they replied pointing at their boxes. “Did you weigh the children?” And suddenly the quarrels about clothes and computers were meaningless.
Our priorities are sometimes so skewed, but because they fit into society’s norms we don’t even notice.
Busyness is a silent stealer of time, priorities and devotion. 

A centurion stood watching these men as they finished up their game. Crucifixions had always bothered him, but were sadly part of the requirement for a soldier. Thankfully he had gotten to the stage where others could do the dirty work. This carpenter had unnerved him though. Perhaps it was something in his eyes, something in the devotion of his followers; he had heard him in the midst of pain murmur words of forgiveness for him, for those around. He stood there uncomfortably watching, waiting, wishing he could be anywhere else when suddenly Jesus opened his eyes and gave a loud cry. The gladness in his voice startled all who heard it, for it sounded like a shout of victory:
“It is finished. Father, into your hands I commit my spirit.”
And with that cry the Carpenter died.
The Earth trembled beneath the Centurion’s feet and he found himself down on a knee with tears welling up in his eyes. He looked up at the dead man in wonder. “Truly” he whispered in horrified wonderment, “Truly, you are God’s son.”
 Romans 10:9 reads “that if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.”
That centurion was never the same. His belief made him stand out among the soldiers, and he was the one who didn’t miss it. Many historical novels speculate how he became a follower and spent his life sharing that moment with others.

This about  about not letting Easter go by as just another holiday.
However if we allow boredom and familiarity to rob us of it, we will be looking at our watches instead of looking at the cross.
If we allow bitterness and prejudice to rob us of the devastation of Good Friday and the joy of Easter Sunday, we will be looking at others in contempt instead of at the Saviour in wonder.
If we allow busyness and distraction to rob us of the time of mourning and celebration, we will be looking at our mundane lives instead of worshipping a creator who loved the world so much that he sent his son to die for us.

This morning you have a choice of how you will approach the Easter Period. With Boredom, Bitterness, Busyness… or we can turn around like the Centurion and kneel at the cross in wonder, that it is God hanging there.